Confused?

Why are we so confused?
What makes us think that something is always missing...
how i wish we would actually like to live in chaos...
but unfortunately, we all want to make order out of all our chaotic lives...

This is Life isn't it?
What we don't realize is without chaos there is no order, and without us
working towards making order out of chaos, there is no life.
If it were to be a perfect world,I'm pretty sure we would not be living in it...:)
Like the architect said, the first design of the matrix was a perfect world, no one suffered,
everyone was happy.. and guess what.. it was a failure.
seems like we humans love to suffer,be sad and depressed.
why are we such retards??

At every point of our life we definitely feel one or more things are out of order (you are lucky if its only one :)).
and it confuses you of why you are in this position. we start thinking of ways to deal with such situations.
we talk to our friends,ask for advice.not too helpful though,because at the end of the day,it leaves you all the more confused.
and of course the total time you are confused on something is directly (probably even exponentially) proportional to the amount of
frustration. we start cursing people who have made you feel like this (but trust me, the only person who has got you here is
thyself).we become judgmental.we get irritated and angry.
After this phase, we come to a place where in anything else is fine with us.
we say whatever happens, happens for good (I dunno who quoted this,but I'm pretty sure that he's a big loser... and i also think
we are bigger losers for actually believing and preaching it. (don't you remember telling your friend this:)).

Now,let me get back,
So where were we?.. ya, accepting anything that comes our way.
Now,you take this something new,accept it gracefully,and you seem to love your life all over again.
its all in order now. :)
wow,you are so happy...
After a few days,you start to realize that this new thing is not too new/different either.
you have problems with this also (maybe same, maybe not).
Its like Love u know, Its all so wonderful in the beginning, then later u start thinking you're better off without it. :)

Now you start thinking what u were before and what u are now...
you somehow make yourself believe that u were better off before...
here comes another quote, grass is always greener on the other side.. what grass are they talking about here..
and is it always green.. is it green on the other side cuz things always look great from a distance (excluding people which
short sight here)..

I love this next phase,
This is where u sit down and start thinking and talking to yourself.
U say to yourself,I put my everything to get something, but did i want this?
its all chaos again...:)
Now if we loop(i hate my influences of work in my writing..) this with a few surprises here and there,i guess it sums it up.


You put all your efforts in achieving something but later when u sit back and think,
you start feeling, i dint ask this from life... :)
But i have a question... do u know what u want from life?...
i certainly don't.
and even if i say i know. please don't believe me.. cuz i'm CONFUSED....