27.12.07

Confused?

Why are we so confused?
What makes us think that something is always missing...
how i wish we would actually like to live in chaos...
but unfortunately, we all want to make order out of all our chaotic lives...

This is Life isn't it?
What we don't realize is without chaos there is no order, and without us
working towards making order out of chaos, there is no life.
If it were to be a perfect world,I'm pretty sure we would not be living in it...:)
Like the architect said, the first design of the matrix was a perfect world, no one suffered,
everyone was happy.. and guess what.. it was a failure.
seems like we humans love to suffer,be sad and depressed.
why are we such retards??

At every point of our life we definitely feel one or more things are out of order (you are lucky if its only one :)).
and it confuses you of why you are in this position. we start thinking of ways to deal with such situations.
we talk to our friends,ask for advice.not too helpful though,because at the end of the day,it leaves you all the more confused.
and of course the total time you are confused on something is directly (probably even exponentially) proportional to the amount of
frustration. we start cursing people who have made you feel like this (but trust me, the only person who has got you here is
thyself).we become judgmental.we get irritated and angry.
After this phase, we come to a place where in anything else is fine with us.
we say whatever happens, happens for good (I dunno who quoted this,but I'm pretty sure that he's a big loser... and i also think
we are bigger losers for actually believing and preaching it. (don't you remember telling your friend this:)).

Now,let me get back,
So where were we?.. ya, accepting anything that comes our way.
Now,you take this something new,accept it gracefully,and you seem to love your life all over again.
its all in order now. :)
wow,you are so happy...
After a few days,you start to realize that this new thing is not too new/different either.
you have problems with this also (maybe same, maybe not).
Its like Love u know, Its all so wonderful in the beginning, then later u start thinking you're better off without it. :)

Now you start thinking what u were before and what u are now...
you somehow make yourself believe that u were better off before...
here comes another quote, grass is always greener on the other side.. what grass are they talking about here..
and is it always green.. is it green on the other side cuz things always look great from a distance (excluding people which
short sight here)..

I love this next phase,
This is where u sit down and start thinking and talking to yourself.
U say to yourself,I put my everything to get something, but did i want this?
its all chaos again...:)
Now if we loop(i hate my influences of work in my writing..) this with a few surprises here and there,i guess it sums it up.


You put all your efforts in achieving something but later when u sit back and think,
you start feeling, i dint ask this from life... :)
But i have a question... do u know what u want from life?...
i certainly don't.
and even if i say i know. please don't believe me.. cuz i'm CONFUSED....

18.10.07

MONEY.. INDEED THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

I don't have an argument with this topic. i was just thinking of why everybody (well almost) wants to either study/work abroad. well it really does not matter, they just want to be there somehow. I’ll just get the obvious thing out of the way in the beginning.. ITS ALL ABOUT MONEY! everyone knows that if all the educated and brilliant people would have stayed in India, we would have been at least 10 years ahead by now.. but frankly speaking its never about the growth of a nation/it becoming a super power.. isn’t it? its all about an individual.. we'll just take an example as we all tend to understand better that way.. Suppose this Guy kartik has worked hard for 21 years to become an excellent aero space engineer who holds a lot of promise in his field. and finally he's at a place in his life where he can earn dough.. but he's not satisfied right? Nobody is.. but that’s a different story altogether.. Now consider that he has 2/3 choices. he can join in as a research assistant in vikram sarabai space centre/ ISRO or he can fly and join NASA (no inspirations from swades.. just coincidence) what does he do? What will you do in his situation? its not a problem with his career. both ways he'll end up great. but what about the money? should he think of his country and what if he brings a great name/ probably a Nobel prize ( i know i'm exaggerating.. but still) or should he just think about himself? its really easy to talk like a patriot.. its difficult to be one. Here's the catch. What if ISRO agrees to pay him as much as NASA. then i'm sure you would want him to think of his country right? Leaving this example apart, think of all those people who just go to the US and are ready to drive CABS.. well they definitely get to lead a very comfortable life with that there.. will they do that here in India. never! because of 2 reasons... 1. No dignity of labor 2. They don't get paid enough if they do that here. well.. if you have a closer look at it... its actually its only one. MONEY. if an sweeper/petrol filler would get a reasonable amount of money.. like a 7/8k per month, i think people will start looking at him with respect. well nobody would mind to do that job just to earn some extra money. there comes your dignity of labor. The bottom line is that almost everyone is underpaid in our country. if they bring in a minimum and maximum hourly pay.. which is of course good money.. then may be nobody will want to go anywhere. obviously this needs a lot of thinking and analysis and its a huge step. but only revolutionary steps make a difference.

21.9.07

Typical Day

The door bell rings.. it rings again and again.. it seems like a dream.. then the phone rings..
with great difficulty my eye lids open.. its my roomie.. he's awake but jealous that i'm enjoying the last few moments before war.. so he decides to call me and wake me up as the door bell is not doing the job..
so after a lonnggg time, the door opens... the bai gets the house back to normal and tries to wake us up before leaving.. i still have no idea why she envy's our sleep. we blabber something from which she understands that she has to just close the door and leave. its like she has a 24 hour amnesia.. everyday, till we blabber, she does not seem to leave. this make me think she's a spy from the enemy lines which we are going to encounter soon...
after 10-20 alarm signals on the phone, we get up, get ready and prepare ourselves for the battle.
the catalyst for this is a cutting chai or a home made instant bru...
on the way,we think of ways to get over with the battle soon... but we know its all going to go in vain...
swipe in... indicates we are ready... like we have a choice.. but still we like to think we were born ready...
First attack was as expected, there's a Build.. we were prepared for this..
so as per plan,we execute things perfectly..and it all seems we are well prepared for the battle..
Dawn approaches and we know it is the most vulnerable time for attack.
suddenly a guy comes from the testing team quoting that he has found a severe fault and wants me to have a look at it..
then,i get a mail saying i have to look into an urgent change request and needs to be delivered very soon and the impact needs to be sent tonight...
within seconds me and my roomie get a mail that we are on build support today... which means we need be in the battle field atleast till midnight..
well, there goes our idea to watch the new movie tonight...

i take a deep breath.. but it does not seem to help...the testing guy is staring at my face for an answer.. words just come out of my mouth without any thought.. "let me go for a tea break and i'll get back to you in 15 mins".. its like my mind is used to these challenges and reacts with a set of protocols..
i go down to darshini.. and order for a cutting..
ok..calm down... says my mind.. my heart has missed a couple of thousand beats already.
my mind struggles to set a flow for all the work in hand.
should i continue coding for the RFC in hand.. or should i start the analysis for the CR.. or should i look into the fault which came in freshly..
the situation that i'm in almost looks ironic and unfair as to how all the weapons can be used at once.. well almost.. but i dint get up and come today to lose this battle.. i put in a few more words of self motivation and i'm back again..
i go to the tester's desk and look into the scenario.. i find out that its cuz of a RFC done by another guy thats got checked in lately.. i ask him to raise the fault.
i come back to my desk and use one of my weapons.. mail.. "please look into this" is sent to the concerned person.. its amazing how these 4 words have so much power.
next i plug in the ear phones for no more distractions and complete the code for the RFC i was working on...
i start getting into a trance of self praise.. i'm so very overjoyed with the way i've encountered the attacks till now..
then i remember that i have another job in hand..
analysis.. so i plan to use my other weapon.. the phone.. the discussion is done and the impact is clear.. i send out a mail to my lead about this...
now.. now i'm ready..
i hear someone say.. manas.. he deserves a great hike and a trip to the UK soon..
my heart cries out and says.. this is it.. its all been worth.. all those late nights.. all those weekends.. atlast you are going to be shifted to another battle field..
the battle field where every soldier dreams of..
the battle field where the cream of the crowd is sent to..
this has been the best news ever!

the phone rings....the mail pops up...
i reluctantly come back to my senses... just to realise that everything i heard was in my mind as there are only 2 people on the floor.. me and my roomie...
the phone call is from IVVT team to inform about a severe live defect... and the mail is about a build failure...the time is 11:00 PM.

battle not over yet. soldier severly wounded.....

Story which tells us why INDIA is still a developing nation.....

Ant and Grasshopper

OLD VERSION...

The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer long building his house and laying up supplies for the winter. The grasshopper thinks the ant's a fool and laughs & dances & plays the summer away. Come winter, the ant is warm and well fed. The grasshopper has no food or shelter so he dies out in the cold.

MODERN VERSION


The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer long, building his house and laying up supplies for the winter. The grasshopper thinks the ant's a fool and laughs & dances & plays the summer away. Come winter,the shivering grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the ant should be allowed to be warm and well fed while others are
cold and starving.

NDTV, BBC, CNN show up to provide pictures of the shivering grasshopper next to a video of the ant in his comfortable home with a table filled with food. The World is stunned by the sharp contrast. How can this be that this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer so?

Arundhati Roy stages a demonstration in front of the ant's house. Medha Patkar goes on a fast along with other grasshoppers demanding that grasshoppers be relocated to warmer climates during winter.

Amnesty International and Koffi Annan criticize the Indian Government for not upholding the fundamental rights of the grasshopper. The Internet is flooded with online petitions seeking support to the grasshopper (many promising Heaven and Everlasting Peace for prompt
support as against the w rat h of God for non-compliance). Opposition MP's stage a walkout.
Left parties call for "Bharat Bandh" in West Bengal and Kerala demanding a Judicial Enquiry. CPM in Kerala immediately passes a law preventing Ants from working hard in the heat so as to bring about equality of poverty among ants and grasshoppers.

Lalu Prasad allocates one free coach to Grasshoppers on all Indian Railway Trains, aptly named as the 'Grasshopper Rath'.
Finally, the Judicial Committee drafts the Prevention of Terrorism Against Grasshoppers Act [POTAGA]", with effect from the beginning of the winter.
Arjun Singh makes Special Reservation for Grass Hopper in educational Institutions & in Govt Services.

The ant is fined for failing to comply with POTAGA and, having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, his home is confiscated by the Government and handed over to the grasshopper in a ceremony covered by NDTV.

Arundhati Roy calls it "a triumph of justice". Lalu calls it 'Socialistic Justice'. CPM calls it the 'revolutionary resurgence of the downtrodden' Koffi Annan invites the grasshopper to address the UN General Assembly.

Many years later...The ant has since migrated to the US and set up a multi billion dollar company in silicon valley.100s of grasshoppers still die of starvation despite reservation somewhere in India ...

As a result we are losing out on a lot of hard working ants and feeding the grasshoppers.
is this why India is still a developing country......